Betrayal

I have not found the time to write one of these and have been busy lately but at last... I have and I just want to get this off my mind.

I don't like people who push me around and are disrespectful to me. You can go ahead and try and use the commonly used for an excuse "Teenager" stereotype but frankly, I'm a person not some animal.

My family within the past year have slowly put some distance between them and myself slowly but surely, showing less and less care. First my brother, then my mother, next my step father, and last but not least recently my father. They act like they do but they honestly do not give an honest care about what I do and think and would rather make my life seem impossible and miserable. They just try and make me think otherwise.

These are the same exact people who have taught me that if you relay your message respectfully to someone or a concern that more can be done than just assuming and screaming away. Yet, they do not do this anymore and would prefer what I have been taught not to do, and it is when I do it back that they retaliate with violence, especially my step father.

Not too long ago, I walked out of the house to blow off some steam only to be pursued by my step father and be beaten on the streets by him.

Life seems these days not worth living, and more and more it feels like a dream you an just end (allergies at full speed don't help).

I hope everyone reading has a better day than I have been having lately.

Rain N Books

One thing that I have to say is how fun rain can be sometimes. As in not so much.
When you ride your bike to get to a bus you so need to catch it becomes a large problem especially since you are in a rush. Here I am biking down one of the biggest roads in my area and by the time I get to where the bus stops, narrowly making it, I find myself soaked, drenched everywhere with water. Head to Toe. Now imagine going like this for about 3 periods of school, eh? Annoying and coold. And one thing I learned from it all is that if your shoes are wet through the socks, you may want to change them if possible, otherwise they'll sting like no other. Ouch.

Well that's my story of the day.

Sounds like a pity party but oh well. Rain is rain, usually not inconveniencing until one is commuting one place.

I also wanted to add in that I am making another story, though both stories were sadly affected by today's rain (notebook got drenchedish). I hope that I can at least release some content and ask what you guys think of it!

"I wrapped my Christmas presents early this year, but I used the wrong paper. See, the paper I used said 'Happy Birthday' on it. I didn't want to waste it so I just wrote 'Jesus' on it."

~Demetri Martin

Books N Blogs

I noticed that when you start doing something like this that it shouldn't be too hard to, and especially when you ponder about it all day while doing other activities. But yet it is. So perhaps starting to tell a story can help me. Recently I started writing some stuff, specifically a novel that in some ways relates to me. Im doing some research for it as well and getting experiences from people of different life experiences an dIve found out alot of interesting things.

Currently all that I do know is that its got to do with a a high school and a teen that has a trouble dlife. Theres lots of things Im still looking into and Im constantly revising it but writing something you can relate to and are enthusiastic about is a very interesting and revealing process.

You learn a lot about yourself and others the way Im doing it and makes you think somewhat differently. The world seems so much different when you hear everyone's story and experiences. It makes you feel closer to the world even if you still do not feel they are your friend. I hope to eventually get to the end of my Chapter of it soon and that it wont be a simple 100 page thing.

For now I have called it Hampshire High Project as thats the name of one of the main settings I have developed for the story. I hope you will like what I have to release on a page.